focusless

what term was that haa? just invented it. several reasons y i'm losing my focus at work:-

• the election - yep, i keep on thinking about the real situation. excited, yet anxious already.
• mixed up feelings - i've no idea what the hell am i feeling right now. arghh! free mee!
• ma future - daily routine, exactly. what am i gonna be? with whom will i gonna spend the rest of my life? how about my kids? when will i die? n the questions keep on spinning in my head.
• the internet - no description with that. ahahh..
• sleepiness - zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZ... duhh..
  
• blur - yep, that's me. suddenly i'm blur. kachau saye cepatt! wake up ema!!
  

i think i wanna be zuhud lahh.. that would be better, aite? nonono.. im still performing my subuh prayer at 7 on weekends (subuh gajah). is He still love me? God, i need u in each seconds of my life. sometimes i'm so laghaa, ya Allah. are You still love me? are You gonna receive my Taubah? there's too much questions in my life... remembering death, is a brilliant thinking. but there's no use if we're keep on doing misdeeds. learn from past. mahmudah action must be more than the mazhmumah deeds. being a human being does'nt excuse us from committing sins. yep, that's true. BUT, being a human being also is not an excuse for us to repeat the same old misdemeanor. think my friends, think! our 'Aql are not useless. keep on muhasabah everyday. hey, i am reminding myself. besides. we know ourselves better than others.

wooww.. i'm writing in English. ma bad English. haha! sorry for disturbing ur eyes. ya, it's been a long time not writing in english yaa. last time was in my SPA xm. ahah, just ignore it. i dont have big hope for that. besides, im not a good writer like my sifoo aka the shai, hu2.. :) luv her writings since our 2ndary school. she's the man. huhu.. i think i'm losing my points right now.

lately, falling in love with Kembara's song, Rupa Tanpa Wajah. still remember it in Kembara Seniman Jalanan movie. a lengthy meaningful movie, loved it. Jebat, sudikah kau menjadi kekaseh gelapku? ahahahak! :p